I Don't Know What To Do

Okay, so I don't have a clue about what to do. Or maybe I have so many clues that they are confusing me. But that isn't exactly the point. The point is that I'm lost. I'm an idiot. I don't know what to do with my life. But maybe I had an idea? THANKS!!!

I need to blog this out

I need to blog this out. I just don't know what to do. I WANT to be a RTS, but at the same time I shudder at the thought! It's just that I don't know what to do. And yesterday I had to FORCE my thoughts, which is something that I have NEVER had to do before. NEVER! So you can see how I might be a little big confused. So I just don't know what to do. I could become a RTS and let down Emily-wa and a bunch of other people, or I could take the easy way and become a RTS. Which might be a good idea. I mean, I have already done enough damage, wouldn't it just be a good idea to mess up my life good and thouroughly now? I mean, sure, that isn't a brillient plan, but still...Whatever. I can't even think anymore, so why should I make a decision?

Change the World

Don't you want to change the world? Make a difference? Cuz I do. See, there are so many problems. Too many problems. But everone makes mistakes, so does that make it alright...no. it doesn't. If everyone said that they made mistakes and that that was OKAY, the world would never get anywhere. So, why not at least TRY to make a difference? Because some people think that it will make them look stupid. I guess I'm one of them, you know if I'm typing this in my SECRET blog, but still. Okay, so I'm just a RTS like everyone else. But does that mean that I can't TRY to make a difference? I CAN totally try. I'm not saying that I'll succeed or anything, but really...I want to do something. I don't care if it's big or small. I think that a lot of small things add up to a big thing, so maybe, just maybe, if I did something small for another person everyday, I could make some sort of change in the world. Could a book or a song change the world? Probably. Books have changed the world. Songs have changed the world. So why not try one of those? I want to. I NEED to. So WHY NOT??? I really want to. The thing is that most people would be worried about what people would think of them. We shouldn't give a damn about what people think of us. Because it doesn't matter. People are just people. Everyone matters, but that doesn't mean that we should listen to them. Shouldn't we be more concerned about what GOD thinks of us? Shouldn't God matter more? Because to most people, God is just God. But God is more than just that. God is our FRIEND. We can't just ignore our friend! We can't just ignore the advice of a FRIEND. Hmmmmm...so now for the big question. How can I change the world?

Shhhhh

This blog is a secret. It's MY secret. This blog is my guilty pleasure. This blog is where I will voice my REAL opinion. Not my RTS opinions. Now, for anyone that's new, a RTS is a Robot To Society. And I'm one of them. Or so it seems. I'm trying really hard to be one. But here's a secret, I actually want to be one. Really, I do. But it's not exactly working out for me. So, I have this blog. This is where I'm allowing myself to voice my REAL opinions on REAL issues that a regulare RTS would have no thoughts about. But I do. Beware, I might delete this blog if anyone finds out about it. I WILL delete this blog if anyone who's anyone finds out about it. Of course, there will be exceptions. But just a few. I mean, if life was all exceptions, there would be no rules. If everyone was an exception, there would be no RTSs. And this may seem really weird, but the world kinda needs RTSs. The world really does. It's like quotation marks. Quotation marks say other people's words, and so do RTSs. RTSs are quotation marks of imitation. But if we don't have quotation marks in books, they don't make much sense. It makes us think. So we need RTSs to hold the world together. I know I really don't NEED to become a RTS, but I think I WANT to. Which is really odd of me. You know, who the heck wants to be a brain-washed idiot? Well, I guess I do. But as I said earlier, it isn't exactly working out for me. So, that's I need a secret blog. To secretly record my thoughts. Because I was an idiot and deleted my old blog. But this might be my only post. I might end up as a RTS for forever. Which would be great. I mean, not so much thinking. But whatever. Let's not talk about that now. Let's talk about metaphorical doors. I mean, they truly are interesting. I've got to go though. I've also got to stop thinking so damn much.